For the longest time, after I wrote that poem, I am back trying to open my mind again for who ever could read this blog.
Many things took over for the past few months, I could not collect all of it in this short write up, but let's say, I miss this, I miss the way I could unfold things that I can't tell the people around me.
I went through some of my stuff last Sunday which I did not hesitate to put aside in the plastic bags, those are the journals I did way back in college, and this morning I realized, I should have kept it.
My senses are once again awaken, of how I dreamed of a love that I want to fight for. I had several struggles that I decided to end just this January, when the year started, and I turned back to my music to eliminate my emotional baggage. I thought for the last 2 years of my life I can live differently, but I am now back to that person who does retrospect a lot.
I learned something about me, there was still a hint in my heart that I want to fix my failed relationship before I will move on, because settling down has been part of my discussion with my boyfriend, plans for the engagement party is there. I guess this is the best time to fix whatever it is. I don't want this to be like the old papers I kept in the box which I realize, I would not be needing anymore.
This will require me to work on many things and do many preparations for my new plans...
Many things took over for the past few months, I could not collect all of it in this short write up, but let's say, I miss this, I miss the way I could unfold things that I can't tell the people around me.
I went through some of my stuff last Sunday which I did not hesitate to put aside in the plastic bags, those are the journals I did way back in college, and this morning I realized, I should have kept it.
My senses are once again awaken, of how I dreamed of a love that I want to fight for. I had several struggles that I decided to end just this January, when the year started, and I turned back to my music to eliminate my emotional baggage. I thought for the last 2 years of my life I can live differently, but I am now back to that person who does retrospect a lot.
I learned something about me, there was still a hint in my heart that I want to fix my failed relationship before I will move on, because settling down has been part of my discussion with my boyfriend, plans for the engagement party is there. I guess this is the best time to fix whatever it is. I don't want this to be like the old papers I kept in the box which I realize, I would not be needing anymore.
This will require me to work on many things and do many preparations for my new plans...
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